I wrote this late one night when I was contemplating whether or not I should try to keep making music. People always say “follow your dreams” but what if following your dreams means you’ll be broke for the rest of your life? I think ultimately, I concluded to just make music for music’s sake and not worry so much about the outcome.

This week’s tune is a sad song influenced by the songwriting of David Bazan of the band Pedro the Lion.

I kept the recording very sparse: just a vocal and electric guitar along with some reverb.

Lyrics:
You think by now I’d have learned my lesson
To never buy into the lies
You’ll go far with ambition they told me
And it never hurts to keep trying

But there are things beyond my control
My ambition is digging a hole

Up again at 2:30 in the morning
My wandering mind just can’t sleep
There’s gotta be a better way to make use of my time
The story can’t stay incomplete

Because there’s things beyond my control
My restlessness is taking a toll
You can keep on telling me that there’s somewhere I should be
But I still fall short of the goal

Maybe in the morning I will put it all into perspective
and maybe I will see a better day then I predicted

But there’s things beyond my control
Pessimism is taking a toll
Now I’m waiting for my day to come
The calendar changes but it’s never the one

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